The Scarlet Letter

I’ve Finished my first self assigned book.

It is probably uncommon that anyone hasn’t read this book, but since I hadn’t there are likely others who haven’t either. Because of this I won’t write the plot or give away the contents of the book. However if you are interested and would like to know here is a surface explanation of the book. The Scarlet Letter Summary.

I definitely feel as though I’ve grown from reading this book. It was incredibly interesting, and kept me reading without difficulty.

The emotions and feelings in this book are so important for people to understand. I feel as though anyone who reads it would greatly benefit from it. My own personal feelings about the struggles and themes within the book, give great insight to the human heart and mind under the circumstances.

It explored the feelings of guilt, shame, strength, burden. Exploring these feelings helped me to explore the same within myself. What is causing them as well as how I could or can view them in relation to today’s world and trials. -What value I still have as a woman who is imperfect, It gave confirmation to where my trials will help me have so much to offer for another who struggles as I have similarly, or had; and needs an understanding heart.

it also gave me great insight to the need for belief that we as humans have, and how destructive guilt can be when allowed. The need for relief from those feelings. as well as when offered how it alters our perceptions.

Though I’ve never had the same circumstances or genre as Hester Prynne had, I can relate to the emotion of it somewhere in the depths of empathy in my soul. Something that hasn’t been awakened in such a long time. I feel like this is yet another important reason to let myself be drawn into books. I can see it being beneficial to feeling the feelings and consequences other books will give me. To develop, to  feel the depths of the Human soul.I can only imagine that there are so many feelings i’m unfamiliar with or have never felt before. I can see and imagine how necessary this is to have.

How exciting!

All in all, I highly recommend The Scarlet Letter.

It gives the reader insight to feelings of sin, guilt, insight to legalism, belief and how it was perceived at that time.

The writer definitely gave thorough description of these feelings with way of his words in a manner I would have never been able to understand had I not read it. It was impressive to me, part of what drew me to continue reading.

Good job Nathaniel Hawthorne. That was awesome!, Thank you!





I’ve been everywhere, man.

I was toting my pack along the long dusty Winnemucca road
When along came a semi with a high canvas-covered load
If your goin’ to Winnemucca, Mack with me you can ride
And so I climbed into the cab and then I settled down inside
He asked me if I’d seen a road with so much dust and sand
And I said, “Listen! I’ve traveled every road in this here land!”
I’ve been everywhere, man
I’ve been everywhere, man
Crossed the deserts bare, man
I’ve breathed the mountain air, man
Travel, I’ve had my share, man
I’ve been everywhere…
For the first time in my life I finally feel at peace with both of my cultures. It hit me yesterday as I finally felt an acceptance for both my Dutch Nationality as well as my American. I love who I am in both of these cultures, and the things I have taken from both sides. It’s nice to know that I don’t have to choose one or the other, or that one is better than the other. I can just be me. Perfectly made from different places.
No shame in one or the other.
I love my American Pride. Who I was born to be I love the land and culture here. What we stand for. I love the Dutch in me, the way of thinking and doing things. I love the history and warmth that brings me. I love the way of saying things that just makes more sense to me and that I can express that otherwise wouldn’t have been possible. It’s helped me develop as a person, I appreciate it so much having learned a new language and experienced/lived/live another culture alongside the other.
Johnny Cash another part of me. Thank to my dad, Love you poppa! Miss singing in the car with you every chance we got 🙂
I’ve been everywhere





The Start of Everything New

I‘ve decided to start this blog to share thoughts I have, dreams, and to exercise my ability to express. To possibly create a better way of communication in my life.

I’m about to start a new job in a week about which I am hoping is the launch of my career. I’m also going back to school in January which I will need some prep for, but i’m excited and Nervous and everything else in between that.

It’s a strange thing how life works and how the mind accepts things.- My husband and I are both older and will be graduating college much later than the average student around here. late 20’s may not seem like that big of a deal but for some reason it seems like two milestones too close together. Almost 30 and graduation.. but oh well the degree is most important for the knowledge self worth of attaining that degree and achieving what you’ve achieved in the time that you’ve been given.  Mike will be graduating in Computer Science in Spring 2018, and I’m not sure when i’ll be finishing up my school. As i’m still in the beginnings of it. so somewhere around age 30-32 i’m estimating? Considering how slow I will need to go with the challenges of some classes as well as working full time.

I changed my major to Business Management. I’m definitely nervous about some of the classes that will be required but I have more faith in myself than before hence changing my major even though it’s more difficult.

Some of my goals to continue to develop myself is to read books that I’ve never had the opportunity to read. Classics that most have read throughout high school or books that have become common knowledge.

I’ve decided to start reading them so I know more of what others know and honestly, after starting with the scarlet letter, how it is written -how the feelings of that time are described- its no wonder how books have helped shape a culture.

So that is pretty exciting, at first it was really difficult to read. I haven’t read a real book since before my mission I think. Mostly just self help books or random articles. It feels a little refreshing, like i’m doing my brain good. I feel like reading the well known books of the times will be a huge favor to myself developmentally.

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